Monday, December 27, 2004

sorry, i had to delete that last post. it was just so blah. i have put myself on writing restriction until i can come up with something better than a yada yada yada update without even any photos (gasp!). right now i am off to see teddy. maybe i will have decent stories to tell when i return. hopefully.

long live the howard franklin bridge, bitches.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

yesterday i walked into a Gap for the first time in six months. and yes, it had everything to do with sarah jessica parker. so i believe that i am finally done with all my christmas shopping. a little something for those that have chipped in to keep me sane, and a little something for those that have made me feel like dying. can you guess which one of those you are? i may still pick up a bracelet or something for my grandma, it all depends on how much time i have and if it stops snowing.

my mother totally broke down this weekend. i think that she thinks that i am going to end up spending all my time in florida with my father. i am trying to be very diplomatic about the whole situation and having to spend my vacation tip-toeing around peoples emotions because all i want to be is fair. t minus four days until the fun begins.

also, all ive been eating lately is deli sandwiches. with avocado. thats one of my new obsessions, avacado. avocado and ginger ale, cant get enough of them these days. ive always eaten guacamole, but straight up avocado is something totally new to me. but the sandwiches leave me feeling fat and sluggish. a chronic case of the itis.

went to kmart today to buy camo thermals, but they didnt have anymore in my size. so i bought a cheap sweatshirt instead. because i dont give a fuck.

i did not drink a drop of alcohol this weekend, which means that a lot less people had to duck flying glasses this weekend. and if i had cussed my boyfriend out this weekend, i would have at least remembered it.

im not always such a domineering bitch.

sometimes i like to play the gimp role.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

at this exact time next week, i will be home. and right now theres no other place id rather be.

who wouldnt want to wake up to that face every morning?

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

today i tried to research health insurance. then i found out that the series of questions that these sites ask you are a labyrinth of ass pain. so ive now decided to take a survey of my peers to find out whats really good and whats really hood in healthcare these days. because like, i have these places on my skin that are looking... ohhhhhh i dont know, whats the word.... malignant? yeah, that one. so i need like a top notch dermatologist and not some ghetto ass hmo shit.

or i could just sit here and rot away. either or.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

can whoever it is that commented on my last post please email me ( or get at me on aim? gracias.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

i took nelly's advice. blame the radio, not me.

after burrowing myself in my bed for the majority of yesterday, for the lack of interest in dealing with the lot of it (and by it i mean life) and a general feeling of uneasiness that presented itself when thinking of actually having to interact with another human, i decided that today was dinner and a movie day. and ordering take out and watching hbo did not count. thereby, i was forcing myself out of my house and out of my sad state (hopefully).

finding neverland was the movie of choice. thats a damn good movie. its a damn good story. it always has been and always will be, i suppose. dreams, love, hope, etc. universal concepts that everyone can relate to. johnnie depp has come along quite nicely as an actor. kate winslet, not so much so. but shes still relatively new to the majors. the kids in the movie were outstanding. you should go see it and have a few tissues stuffed in your pocket.

dinner was had at a restaurant that we recently signed as a new client. i had a knuckle sandwich for appetizer, which is lobster meat and truffle jus sandwiched in toasted white bread and topped with an egg over easy. for the main course was one of my all time faves, filet mignon. this restaurant is like the best for winter dining. sooo west villagesque. it was nice to get out and see how the other side lives.

Thursday, December 09, 2004

max fish is the happiest place on earth.

except when douches are sitting there tazing themselves and everyone that walks by with a stun gun. or when like five fights break out inna night even though youve already left, and only hear about them the next day and you find out that your boy meant to punch this one dude, but punched someone totally else instead.

yeah, good times. definitely.

i have purchased my ticket home and am completely stoked to get the hell outta the city and drive around in my car and eat food that was cooked specifically for me and sleep all day and play with puppies and not answer my phone when people call because i am in FLORIDA bitches! its gonna be good times. i tried to switch my ticket so that i could stay there for nye, but it was gonna be like 150 bucks to change it. what a butt fuck that is. so now its set that i will be coming home the morning of the 31st and my best friend will be in nola and my roommate will in san frandisco and i will have to pester scott bluntz to please let me hang out with him in all his cool-ocity and crash on his couch after i throw a drink in someones face. i apologize and thank you ahead of time, scotty.

Sunday, December 05, 2004

don't hold yourself like that you'll hurt your knees
i kissed your mouth & back that's all i need
don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i’ll ask for the sea
don't throw yourself like that in front of me
i kissed your mouth your back is that all you need?
don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
what i am to you is not real
what i am to you you do not need
what i am to you is not what you mean to me
you give me miles and miles of mountains
and i’ll ask for the sea
what i give to you is just what i’m going through
this is nothing new no no just another phase of finding
what i really need is what makes me bleed
and like a new disease she’s still too you to treat
volcanoes melt me down
she’s still too young
i kissed your mouth
you do not need me