Monday, January 24, 2005

girl, im in love with you, but this aint the honey moon, past the infatuation stage...



so i guess, new york, if i can make it passed this weekend with you, then we can make it through anything, no? if i promise and you promise, do you really think we'll last? not like promise promise, but like, FOR REAL this time? because, my love, ill be honest, these past few weeks, months even, have been pretty rough and ive felt like walking out on you. without a second thought. see, i learned a long time ago, that if you have to think about something soooo much, then its just not right for you. and when i leave you and have to come back, its the coming back part that i think about. a lot. staying where i am, excuse me, where i was, really doesnt take much comtemplation. but that would be taking the straight and narrow, and you know and i know that just isnt the way we like to do things. but you see, there are others that need me and others that i love that are very far away, and i remain consistently torn. and i know you like to dish it out and you know that i like to dish it out, but inevitablely, all that leaves is someone with their feelings hurt.

all. of. the. time.

and, my city of dreams, if we want this to work, we have to stop that. when things get heated, we each need to take a minute to breath and think about the issue thats really at hand. and deal with it from there. and ive lost focus, i wont lie to you. ive forgotten what really drew me to you from the get-go. but at the same time, my priorities, and my opinions, have changed. but i will make the first step and say that i am willing to compromise. and i say that painstakingly, for i feel that im raising my white flag, and that... well, that is something that usually doesnt happen too often. im still not sure what im willing to give up in exchange for what youre willing to give, but i bet we can come to some sort of an amicable understanding. i am not an unreasonable person and you are not an unforgiving city. please remind me of why i fell in love with you. i could use a good memory or two...

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